Drunk letters to my sober soul two

In my life, people have loved me 

And they have hated me,

And I am humbled by the harmonious balance. 

In the love, I find my weakness, 

And my solid ground. 

In the hatred, I find my strength, 

And my wings.

I fly with the birds, 

But have no fear to swim with sharks.

Because if you pay attention, 

Even the deadliest of people can show you and take you to the most beautiful of depths. 

Drunk letters to my sober soul

Tonight you're drunk

Tonight you danced

Tonight you fell in love with yourself

Tonight you didn't cry

And tonight you were alone

Tonight you smiled, and just in case you don't remember, 

Tonight you were okay.

You might have been numb to the pain, but you felt happiness,

You felt freedom.

Tonight you found a piece of yourself, and fell hopelessly in love with it.

An if that's all you remember then,

Tonight was perfect.

You.

I crave you innocently, 

Without the need for intimacy. 

I crave your words and your smile, 

Your actions to prove you'll stay for a while. 

Without the promise of forever, I want your hand, 

To be there when you fall, and help you stand. 

To love you when life gets tough, 

To know when to call your bluff. 

When life gets in the way, 

To use your strength to get the day. 

I long to touch your skin, 

To confidently say, " you're different from other men." 

Don't speak of marriage, forever is a long time. 

Just speak for right now and tell me you will be mine 

Empty

When you said, " I feel complete bliss with you." I believed you. 

When you said, " I don't know what love is." I showed you. 

When you said, " I want to protect you." I trusted you.

And through all that you made me believe that you didn't want me to leave. That I was different, but your words are as empty as the life you lead. The thought of being without you scared me, I wanted to show you how beautiful it can be to be open with someone who would stand by you. But, 

When I said, " I'm here, until you fuck up." I meant it. 

When I said, " I see you for who you are." I loved it.

When I said, " She isn't me, and won't ever be." You saw it. 

We were beautiful, and twisted... But we worked. 

Now we are nothing, and it's your fault, and I don't hurt. 

Casey.

To the father of my son,
I could never hate you for anything that has happened.
We share a son,  he is our lives captain.
We have struggled so much to see what is right and what is wrong with being together.
We have learned that being apart is for the better.
I still love you,  for all that you are.
You are always in my prayers,  praying that in life,  you go far.
You gave me a life to which I never imagined I would have,
For that I am grateful,  you are still my other half.
I  imagined us growing old for so long,
But when the music stopped,  we forgot the song.
He is the best of you,  and the worst.
I will cherish him forever,  it's not a curse.
I know that we tried for this I will never regret
You are my greatest memory,  for which I will never regret.
I hate that you left in the way you did,
But I know it's a chapter of life that you had to close the lid.
I am not angry,  nor am I sorrowful,
We live our chapter,  and it was beautiful.
You promised forever,  and the moon,  and the stars.
You gave me my forever,  it ended so quickly,  but that's who we are.
I will always love you and want to protect you,
The life we had together is the only thing I knew.
We must grow old,  separate,  but not apart.
We share a son,  this is where our own lives must start.
I will love you forever,
Please don't hesitate to call in bad weather.
I don't call because the sound of your voice brings back happy memories,
It's the sound of a thousand oceans,  I don't want to  drown in the melodies.
You are perfect,  and one day someone will see that just like I did,
Hopefully you're ready next time,  and perfectly on your grid.
Our son is so beautiful,  he looks like you everyday.
You will have a beautiful relationship,  and love him more each day.
Each kiss I give him is for the both of us,
Because you are a part of me,  the only part that I trust.

Finish

You gave her life purpose,
Such truth and meaning.
Without you,  her days are no longer gleaming.
They are dark and sorrowful,
She loves,  but never how she loved you.
Instead of words,  silence takes the cue.
 She is one step closer to being happy,
But she will never be complete.

She will never finish....

Who am I

Who am I?
I am a girl who loves deep literature and
Deep conversation.
I am a girl who will forgive you and forget
Just to avoid confrontation.
I am a girl that rides the waves of the ocean on my back,  just to feel a little closer to heaven.
I am a girl whose favorite number happens to be twenty-seven.
I am a girl that gets over jealous,  even if we aren't together,
I am a girl who will stay strong,  just to make it through the weather.
I am a girl whose love runs so deep that it is never lost.
I am a girl that takes the fall for you,  pays every cost. I I am a girl whose heart belongs to many,  because it would be selfish of me to take it back.
I am a girl that hates to be alone,  because only then I realize what I lack.
I am a girl who struggles with her past,
I am a girl that will love you,  just because you asked.
I am a girl that was created to be the one for many,
I am the girl,  that once you realize you love me,  I will only be a memory.
I will listen to deep music,  just to open my heart to myself.
I will listen to your problems,  so you may feel relieved of yourself.
I will carry your problems,  and make you forget.
But in the end,  I will probably be your biggest regret.