When you're gone

I'll love you when you're  gone. 

Across the world,  or the country. 

I'll love you through the silly conversations where you speak so bluntly. 

I'll love you through the bad times and the fights, 

I'll love you when you're on your flights. 

Tell me where you are is beautiful,  

And that you are happy. 

Tell me you are where you want to be

I'll be happy for you gladly

I'll be in love with you forever my love,  

And here I'll be when push comes to shove. 

But in the early morning at the break of dawn, 

I can't help but love you when you're gone. 

As deep

As deep as the love flows, 

It's just as quickly to go. 

I cherished you in every way, 

Gave you a son,  you ran away. 

My heart feeling no reason at all to beat, 

Knowing the love of our child,  makes me complete. 

I gave my all,  for you to leave. 

I  searched and searched,  you withheld the key. 

So overwhelmed with guilt of what I have done, 

Only I finished what you had begun. 

Maybe one day you'll love me the same, 

Only your time has already came.  

Intoxicated by love,  I was blinded, 

Only when I go home will I be reminded. 

Your cut so deep it pierced through, 

Now I can only pray to God,  that I will get over you. 

My Demon

Demons? 

We can talk about Demons. 

Not the ones that hide under your bed, 

How about the ones that tried to kill you,  smashed your head. 

The ones that said you would never amount and never go far, 

The ones that tried to kill your mother,  put her in their car. 

The ones that stole a piece of your soul,  that you'll never get back.

The ones that caused you pain,  made you question what you lack. 

How about the ones that got you drunk? 

Or the ones that called you a chunk? 

I remember mine clear as day, 

She showed up so sweetly,  then took three years away. 

And that's not all she took,  oh believe me. 

I have no peace of mind,  and my heart holds no key. 

She made me feel unsafe,  so unwanted. 

That now at night,  in my dreams I am haunted. 

The screams of my mother,  and the shaking of my bones, 

Will never disappear,  and this she owns. 

I suffer psychologically everyday, 

Will I ever be accepted,  at least in one way?

Being stripped of my pride,  my independence,  and my humanity  has all had its effect on me, 

I'll just make sure that I'm not the piece of shit she thought I would be.  

Drugs

Let my love be your drug and I'll get you high

I'll take you to the moon,  the stars,  and beyond the sky. 

I'll go with you willingly on this unintended trip

I'll take your pain,  make you forget. 

I'll inhale your free spirit and you will pass out from freedom

I will suck you dry and become your demon. 

I'll latch on to you before you may oppose, 

I'll dress you down,  you may even decompose. 

I will take everything you have before it's even here, 

" It's all your fault" I'll whisper in your ear. 

Until the day you let me go, 

I'll build up in your mind,  and you will never grow. 

Challenge me

Intoxicate me with your words.

Pleasure me with your mind. 

For you are the only drunken high I may find. 

Kiss me with your heart. 

Sink into me with your thoughts. 

Share your wisdom,  that you so graciously brought 

Tease me with debates 

And tell me you're smarter

Challenge me to talk,  but I won't loosen my garter

But when it all comes to an end 

Your just a friend
That knows my soul like the back of his hand. 

Maybe

Maybe in a past life we were together.

Maybe we held on and made it through the weather.

Maybe one of us died and the other never let go.

Maybe one of us cheated and the other never let the heart break show.

Maybe I was a game you played everyday.

Maybe you were my sunshine in the midst of my grey.

Maybe I  was your words when you couldn't speak

Maybe you were the mountain and I was your peak.

Or maybe we never really knew each other at all.

Maybe I was the jumper and you were my fall.